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[SourceFroob]

 
how do I put this the right way?

Hello, I'm back to playing TFC. You probably have seen me already, under various greek aliases such as Hephaestus or Iphicles. I had originally planned to start off this announcement post with a crazy grandiose opening. But as I'm actually sitting here now typing this, I figure that wouldn't really be appropriate. I owe this community more than I ever realized.

I'd like to immediately start off by saying this. I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that after everything I promised not to be, after everything we've all been through, after making countless friends here, that I betrayed your trust, and your faith in me to be a better person. I'm sorry for all of the things I've done, from chiming in on topics irrelevant to me, to flaming in the forums about admins doing their job effortlessly, and me ignoring their rules and playing ignorant. I'm sorry for trolling the chatbox, ruining that entire system and damaging my integrity past the point of redemption.

I'm sorry to Master, for making a joke of myself and making you appear foolish for giving me things. I have no doubt that I damaged the player base with my antics. my toxicity turning away onlookers to the servers by making the surviving few look like jerks.

I'm sorry to Gimpy, who stood by me until the end. You put your trust in me, and considered me a friend. When things went wrong due to my foolishness, you aided me and gave me wise counsel on matters. When the time actually came that you tested me, I failed miserably. I know you'll never truly forgive me but I know this needs to be said regardless.

I'm sorry to Harley, for constantly acting like a retard when interacting with you for reasons I don't even remember. I know nothing about you, I know nothing about how you moderate. I spent this afternoon reading several pages worth of my posts and interactions, and every single one with you I truly cringe at how stupid I was acting. When I built up this huge stigma of me trolling other people, it was no surprise that when actually confronted with it, I denied it.

I'm sorry to Cocopuff, if you're still here. I intentionally caltropped the spawn door, you called me out on it, I acted like a psychopath and you banned me, rightfully. Immediately following this decision, I spammed the entire ban appeal section with bullshit posts emulating JoL with his train appeals. I genuinely don't know what I expected. Again, this huge trolling spree lead to me genuinely convincing myself that I was being called a troll without precedent.

I am also exceptionally sorry to Rocket2Me, another great player of whom trusted me to be a good person. Instead of acting like an adult and speaking to him one on one, I made a big fucking song and dance about the entire debacle, acting like a drama king. I understand why my name was wrong now.

Finally for now, I am deeply sorry to that individual I acted tyrannical towards, who made a post on the forums regarding my behavior towards them. I don't remember much, but I do remember vividly acting not on principle, but out of personal distaste for your playstyle. Once again I look back on these things with genuine frustration.

If anyone else would like me to speak on my actions towards them, please ask me. I have done so many things on several occasions to many people. Just tell me what happened, when it happened, and It should come flooding back.

I don't want it to seem I'm downplaying my actions or excusing them, for there is truly no excuse for behaving like this towards people who didn't know me personally, didn't live within 100 miles of me, but still cared for me anyways.

I would like to state officially, mark the date, that in 2016 I was 16 years old. I was frustrated and conflicted like many teenagers. I was suffering in school, and I took my anger out on people who I cared for, with power I didn't deserve.

Now, moving on.

Due to the recent kerfuffles regarding foreign diseases and angry politicians, I'm not that busy. I have spent these few years to myself finishing school, and starting life, much to my chagrin. I have an apartment to myself, a car which Is worth far less than what I paid for it, and yes, a person who I love deeply.
I stopped playing TF2 last year. I no longer found it enjoyable. Yet strangely, upon playing TFC for the first time in ages, a game I thought was extremely linear felt far more complex than any match of TF2 I've played.

So yes, for the forseeable future, I have returned. I can't wait to play games with you all again. Hopefully I can atone for everything I've done to you, time and time again.

If you were wondering what my post would have originally been themed around, here is a super rad sick amazing chill image

[Nuggs]

TL:DR

In all honesty personal growth is important and acknowledging your faults from the past isn’t an easy task. So I commend you for trying to make yourself a better person.

That being said I would really appreciate it if someone from high council could make you an admin for a hour so you could ban xheon again, that would be muy bien

[SourceFroob]

TL:DR
In all honesty personal growth is important and acknowledging your faults from the past isn’t an easy task. So I commend you for trying to make yourself a better person.

Thanks Nuggs.

[Gimpy]

 

I totally forgot that happened